First day of school went well. Older kids found the right buses and made their way home without incident. I picked up Ian, talked to the pickup people about my school situation, and worked out a plan. He’s just going to sit on a bench inside until I get there. Easy as pie. It’s what he did last year, but I won’t be there at 2:50 this time. I won’t be there until 3-3:05. Boring, but he’d be waiting anyway even if he went to after school child care. They don’t ‘open’ until 3. I’m glad that’s taken care of. It was the source of much stress.
I went to the college and got my parking pass today. My stomach did flips the entire time. This should be fun.
I have read the syllabuses for 3 of the classes I’m taking. Yeah. There ain’t no way this chic is going to make it. I am not that smart anymore. I feel better with the Adderall , but I have a feeling she won’t allow me to be on it for a long time. I lost 5lbs the past 4 days. I personally am not complaining, but I know she will, as they weigh me at each visit. If this keeps up, I’ll be at my goal weight in a few weeks. And perhaps dead from starvation. I simply am not hungry. Hard to force yourself to eat when you aren’t hungry. No hunger pains , no nothing. Amazing really. I know I know – it’s bad. I realize that. I just don’t care.
Hard to cook when you aren’t eating.