I love Gordon. Kitchen nightmares makes me cry. There’s my sappy shit for the day. I think he’s really neat. Neato.

I have two boys working at Sonic now. MB1 quit his restaurant job to go to work at Sonic with MB2 – only he might have a shot at the asst mgr’s job since he’s 18. Kinda sorta chaps MB2’s hide, but whatta ya do? I hope summer hurrys up and gets here so they can both get some hours. People visit SOnic more when it’s nice out. RIght now both boys are being called off right and left. They both have bills to pay and cars that need things fixed. I damn sure don’t have enough cash to help out. I’m the one needing the money from them to pay part of their cell phones and car insurance.

How do I get these fake nails off. They are driving me crazy. I soaked them in acetone for 30 minutes – nothing happened. I clipped them down so I can actually do shit now, but they still bother me. Do I just have to wait until they grow the hell off? Geezus.

I did payroll by myself (almost) this week, and so far no one has called to bitch about their pay. I’m still waiting though.

The school called and wants MB5 evaluated. Have I mentioned that? Don’t remember. ANyhow, I took him in today to the regular doc, and they referred him to First Look in KC. We’ll see how that goes.

Moody Sister has found two lumps in her breast – let’s get those prayers going. Please. Appt is the 11th. I will admit that I do not check my breasts. I am terrified I’m going to find something. I plan on making my pap/mammogram appt next week however. I won’t tell you how long it’s been since I’ve had a pap. It scares me too. Haven’t had that colonoscopy repeated either. Yep, scares me too.

But, now is the time to get all that shit out of the way. We have cancer indemnity now, and if I’m going to be sick, now’s the time to do it. I guess. I’d rather not though. If it’s all the same to you.

My eyes still hurt from Ramsey’s show. Me thinks the tears come a little too easy. I wish spring would hurry up so this pesky depression shit can blow over. It’s not a full fledged episode, but even a hint of down-ness pisses on my parade.

I guess we’ve decided to let MB1 and MB2 smoke at home now. Outside, but still. Part of me says that this is just condoning the behavior and making it worse. Part of me says that they are both going to smoke regardless, and they are never at home anymore BECAUSE we won’t let them smoke. They are always at X’s or Y’s because they can smoke there. Or they are hanging out at work -where they can smoke. Or even just in their cars. It hit me that they aren’t trying to get away from us every night – they just want to be able to smoke. So we talked about it, and I guess we’ll let them do it outside. MB2 actually had a friend over last night instead of going over to this kid’s house. This kid smokes too – hell, they all do. They went out to the car after dinner and came back in ready to play video games. Felt really weird knowing that I was ‘allowing’ him to smoke. But we really don’t know what else to do. I brought home a pamphlet from the doctor’s office today on smoking. But I remember how I was at that age and beyond. Couldn’t tell me anything. At least they don’t smoke too much. MB1 doesn’t anyway. I’m afraid to know how much kiddo #2 smokes. I just can’t believe I’m having this problem anyfuckingway. Both of those little shits used to gag and choke and cough and hack and wheeze and bitch and moan and yell and whine and complain and finally guilted me into quitting. And when I finally do – they light up. Asses.

Pleased to report that MD is on day ….. what day is today? Day 29. He’s on day 29. Almost made it a month. One day at a time.

The biggest loser starts monday at work. Weigh in. Whooooo. Someone told me to drink lots of water that day so that at least I can show some weight loss at the second weigh in. I just hope I don’t make a fool of myself. I hope I at least lost SOMETHING. I already watch what I eat – and lose NOTHING by the way – so I’m going to add back in the ole exercise and see what happens.