Catching up, Personal Edition
Not ready to talk about dad yet. The past couple weeks are still zooming around in my head, and it’d be impossible to sort through it just yet. So I’m not going to try.
I will say that we had the tournament and it went very well, considering that MD wasn’t working there anymore to promote it, and no one was interested in doing what needed to be done since dad was so sick. We still have around $1100 or so after expenses. I’m not complaining. Every bit helps. Every little bit.
Trying to get the kids ready for school with this non-functioning brain of mine. Older boys have registration today and tomorrow. Time to start coughing up the cash. Guess that means I better reconcile my account. I haven’t done anything with the bills for a month. I deposit paychecks, and that’s it. I haven’t paid bills. I haven’t written any menus or gone grocery shopping. I couldn’t tell you how much is in the bank. I just haven’t done anything. Very unlike me. Hopefully I will get to that mess today. Bleah.
I started taking my pills again. Yesterday was not a good day to start my ‘back into the swing of things’ shit. I pushed through, but man it was rough. I know the lithium kicks in quick, so that eases my mind a bit. Not really concerned with the rest. I absolutely cannot take this seroquel. I tried again last night, and damn. In bed 15 minutes after taking it – which turned out to be 8:30pm. And then I couldn’t get out of bed until 8 am. I usually pop up at 6am no matter if I have to be awake or not. That’s ok though. Either she finds something else or she doesn’t. I’m doing ok in that regard anyway. Sort of. Enough. Or maybe it’s that I don’t give a shit if I’m being mean or not. Good chance.
I’m going room by room as I get things back to normal. The living room was yesterday, and I still didn’t get done. Mostly the decluttering. I wanted it all to get done. Then again, I ended up working on the kitchen a little yesterday, so maybe I can get it done quickly and get back to the shit I missed in the computer area. I did catch up all of the laundry. 9 loads. Took all fucking day. Literally. My dryer sucks and it takes 2 go-rounds to dry a load. Roughly 2 hours a load. It’s a bunch of shit, I tell you that.
I got a bunch of plants from dad’s funeral. I don’t know where I was going with that.
There, brain is empty, save the jumbled mess of shit I have yet to go through.
Usually when my dryer doesn’t do its job in one load, it’s time to clean the lint trap outside the house. Not sure if this will help your dryer or not.
Syl | August 14, 2007 | 9:31 am
I’m glad the tournament went well!
We’ve got those plants, too. For some reason, I bust by butt taking better care of those than I do any of the others. Makes no sense, really.
Busy Mom | August 14, 2007 | 9:35 am
Glad to hear the tourney went well.
*hugs*
Sooz | August 14, 2007 | 9:44 am
I skipped paying bills for a month or two after my mom died. Make sure that you call the creditors and let them know that you had a death in the family so that you don’t f-up your credit. (I neglected to do that.)
I sympathize with you on the Seroquel, too. I skipped mine for the last week and was positively buzzing and barely sleeping. But I was also a colossal bitch and having some really strange thoughts running thru my head. Also started skipping the reg. meds because I didn’t think that I needed them any more.
Decided to take everything normally yesterday and still only feel half-awake. Good luck with finding a better sub for the seroquel.
Take your time with all the other stuff.
Janet | August 14, 2007 | 11:19 am
After my mom died I don’t think I could put two thoughts together for a month. I just wanted the world to stop..stop..stop!! Gradually things came back into focus and they will for you, too. Take one day at a time, that’s all you can do. I’ve walked that road so I know. Take care and God Bless.
Jeanette | August 14, 2007 | 11:28 am
Just thinkin of ya Ang.
You need anything, just yell.
::Hugs::
Tink | August 14, 2007 | 11:39 am
Thinking about you…glad to hear from you.
Holly | August 14, 2007 | 2:10 pm
Glad to see you post. Just take it a day at a time – we are all pulling for you.
Laura | August 14, 2007 | 2:40 pm
Be gentle with yourself, and take your time getting back in the swing of things. It’ll all come together eventually. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers…
Esme | August 14, 2007 | 4:16 pm
Time will heal…it won’t take the memories away….but you’ll get your head back. Take care of yourself!
Lujza | August 14, 2007 | 11:54 pm
Good wishes.
emily | August 16, 2007 | 5:36 pm