Tomorrow marks the two week point for these headaches.  Joy. Could it be because of a UTI? I think I have one. Pissing every hour on the hour. Totally unlike me. I’m a twice a day gal. If that. This is ridiculous. Either it’s an infection, or I’m pregnant. And since I just got over Aunt Flo – probably not likely. MD wouldn’t let me live anyway.

Doobie Brothers ……. aahhhhh…. it keeps you running …….
I’ve had to get two shots thanks to these headaches. I’ve taken way too much medicine trying to kill them on my own. I wish it would hurry up and ride its course already.

I had to dig MB2’s car out of the alley tonight. Go me. He had it high centered, and man was it tough to dig that shit out.

I’m tired. I think I’m going to go lay down.

I have had a headache for two weeks now. I’ve been spending many nights online waiting for the medication to start working. I’ve found myself at the virtual makeovers site trying to figure out what way to go in terms of hair color. I’m still torn, but the site helped a little.

Black and dark brown are no-nos. I think it’s safe to say that. I just look horrible in shit that dark.

Blond doesn’t look THAT bad, but I still wasn’t that impressed with it.

So, that left red. And I went for it.

Now, I like it, but if it just looks totally wrong – say something. Before is what I looked like with the dark shit growing in , and the red is me this afternoon..

Hope your new year is a blessed one.

We have a wedding to go to on New Year’s Eve. IF we can find a sitter. MD doesn’t want to straddle MB3 with the kids again since he has plans. Not sure if the older boys will watch them. Hope so. I’m supposed to find a little black dress for this wedding. Do they sell little black dresses that hide 20lbs? Hope so. ‘Cause that’s what I’m packing. It will also be our celebration for our 10th year anniversary. The family anniversary. The other one will be in APril – the 20th. Wish we were rich – I’d be racking in some serious jewelry.

I’m a failure as a mom. What a nice ChristmasEveEve post, eh? But I am. Why else would my two oldest boys be smoking? MB1 claims to only smoke when he drinks, but MB2 isn’t riding that excuse. Insert big sigh here. After all those years of bitching at me – and he was the loudest one. Now he turns around and lights up. I told him that I needed to drop 20lbs and lose some stress and I know just how to do it and I don’t have to feel guilty about it now. He just put his head down. SHithead.

My house is clean for the moment and I am getting ready to start baking. My friend is coming over tomorrow night and mom will be here on Christmas day. Presents are all wrapped. I’m ready. I can’t wait to see the kids’ faces this year. Should be a good year.

There’s a girl at work that just started. She said they are having a rough time buying gifts this year since she was out of job so long and her husband was laid off for a few months. I feel terrible. I wish I had something to give her. I wish I had money to slip her in secret. Just slide it in her purse. I wish I wish I wish. She should have said something earlier, cause our work adopted 6 families this year and she could have been one of them. I know she didn’t want to mention it, but it kind of slipped out today. I hope someone is able to help her. She has a 14 year old girl and a 11 year old boy. I wouldn’t even know what to get them even if I had the money. Maybe MD will get a big bonus by some miracle on his check tomorrow. I can dream, eh?

Since I’m real shitty about updating lately, I will officially say Merry Christmas now. Have a fantastic holiday, and may the new year bring many blessings.

Hadn’t realized it had been this long since I checked in. Sorry.

MD isn’t sure if he’s taking the new job or not. It doesn’t pay very well to start. In fact, we’ll go back to the same might lose the house level we’ve been at the past five months. Then again, it has very wonderful benefits and the opportunity to advance is fantastic. On the other hand, he’s back on a nice paying route and he likes his job. He’s just hurt that they could screw his over like they did. We seriously almost lost the house because of this. Still not out of the woods. I have two more payments to make before we’re caught up, and that means lumping it with current payments – and that makes for a very large mortgage payment. We’ll somehow make it. I hope.

So, I’ve been somewhat depressed. I didn’t have any more for Christmas either, and that didn’t help my mood. Then my friend and my mom stepped in and took me shopping. That lifted my spirits tremendously. Now Christmas is done and the kids will be happy and I’m more than happy. The house is out of foreclosure and things are looking up. KnockKnockKnock.

Other than that, everything else is about the same. Kids are doing well, MD and I are great (I think – will still never know 100% since that drama in 2006), and I am doing better at work. I stopped the celexa and lowered the anxiety med, and what do you know? I’m not checking the paperwork as much. Maybe I just needed the confidence boost that I DO know what I’m doing. The celexa gave me that, so it wasn’t all bad. Still glad to have my mojo back though.

I miss dad. Have I said that already this month? I do. It’s so hard this time of year. Christmas was his thang.

Speaking of losing someone – hope over and give Michele some love. She lost her mama to the cancer monster recently. It just never ends. And it won’t end until we find a cure. Step up and do something the next time you hear about a cancer fundraiser or a walk  – it could be your family next.

I would like to get the cancer insurance offered at MD’s work, but it cost so much. SO much money for a just in case type of thing. I know I’ll get it sometime, but will it be this year? Who knows. Do I want to spend $80 a month right now? I know that doesn’t seem like a lot of money to some, but every little bit helps right now. Then again, if I get sick, we’re financially ruined. I have a week to decide. Lovely.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas/Holiday season if I don’t pop back on before then. Count your blessings.

Moody Sister is ok. Surgery went well, and hopefully this is the last round of that shit she has to deal with.

If anyone wants to exchange Christmas cards, just holler. Shoot me an email with your snail mail addy, and I’ll get one of these dollar store cards in the mail pronto. Someday I’ll be able to afford the pretty ones, but for now, you get the traditional assortment for your viewing pleasure.

Moody Sister had to have surgery again today. Sure wish they’d get it right for a change. Check in when you can.

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Tree fell twice today. Had too many ornaments anyway. Now all the glass ones are gone and the tacky plastic ones rule. Suits me fine. Star on top is on its last leg though. It’s missing pieces and just looks horrible. Maybe the Christmas fairy will bring us a new one.

Something just fell off the tree. Getting a wee bit tired of fixing this shit tonight.