Tournament went great. Was a fantastic 80 degrees. Couldn’t have asked for a better day for volleyball.

Had a few more teams than last year, but didn’t make as much on the raffles – so it evened out.

Grand total so far is $1322. Go us. We are thinking about having a kickball tournament soon so we can raise enough to make new shirts next year. I would like to get it done in time to raise our total for this year (had my heart set on $1500), but it looks like it’d be in October, and the walk is in September. So, we’ll set the money aside for next year and shirts.

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My sister’s birthday was this week. Happy Birthday MS! Her son’s birthday was yesterday – Happy Birthday ……. MoodyNephew1.

I feel like I’m behind on my updating. No shit, eh?

Now I have to take MB3 to the game/dance.Taxicab’s work is never done.

Couldn’t post for five days. Couldn’t figure out what was wrong. Got very pissed and almost screwed some shit up for real. Then son #2 tells me that my javascript isn’t enabled. Duh. Thanks. All better now.

Soooo…..where was I?

Happy 8th Birthday MG (yesterday)!

Yay MD for getting a car!

Booo my first car payment bill came in the mail today. Wait, I’m supposed to be thankful that I have a car, so I won’t boo the bill. Still bites the wienie to make the payment though.

I actually get my own desk at work soon. I’ve been sharing some other gal’s because she’s hardly ever there, but now I get my own. Yay me.

The tournament is tomorrow. Wish us luck. We have 19 teams so far with 4 more promised. That’s 6 teams more than last time. That’s $300 more than last time. Let’s see how much the raffles make though since we don’t have the big ticket items this go round. Concessions should bring in a couple hundred too. Again, wish us luck. Should be 80 degrees and fucking AMAZINGLY perfect tomorrow. Yeehaw. I’m excited.

Half nekkid men playing v ball all day as I watch. Hell yeah I’m excited.

It’s MG’s party today. 12 squealing little girls in a pottery shop. Yay. Should be fun for her though. For all of them. Hard to believe she’ll be 8 this week. She was but a wee lass when I started this blog. Time sure flies.

She won’t let anyone talk about Papa (my dad) around her. Says it makes her think about him, makes her sad, and it takes days for it to go away. I wonder if this calls for therapy? It’s not healthy. It’s the way I do it, but it’s still not healthy. I don’t want her learning coping skills from me,  ’cause I don’t have any.

Anyway, at least today will be a good day.  knockknockknock

I found out last night that MB2 has been drinking. Both him and MB1 actually. They got drunk together last weekend – it was MB1’s first time with alcohol. But MB2 has been drinking awhile now. Always at a particular friend’s house, and always staying there, not leaving. Never driving drunk or riding with someone who has been drinking. All of that is fine. Way to go. So why do I feel so dumbstruck?

Because I didn’t expect it from him. I thought he was my no nothing kid. The one to say no to all the evils that life threw at him. I guess that was all bullshit.

I’m not really mad that he’s doing it. I’m not a hypocrite like that. At least, I’m trying not to be. I was nothing short of an alcoholic in high school. I drank every single weekend. I was tore up more often than not. My parents knew and as long as I was safe about it, they didn’t say anything. I’m sure they didn’t like it, but it wasn’t like they could stop me. That’s how I feel now – not happy, but what can I do? Forbid him from seeing that kid? He’ll just lie and go over there anyway. Only this time maybe he’ll try to drive somewhere else afterward to avoid being caught there overnight. Would he drive drunk? How the hell do I know? I didn’t even think he was drinking.

I guess he tried to tell me awhile back, but I wasn’t too receptive. Shot him down quick talk of punishment and such. But that was my scare tactic to try and keep him away from alcohol. Now that’s he met it, and obviously keeps meeing with it, my tone is switching gears to common sense and safety and laws and criminal records and blah blah blah.

Tell you the truth, I’m more scared about MB1. He’s not a good drunk, from what we’ve heard. Too emotional. The kind of person who’s no fun to be around when you’ve been drinking. He’s the one that’s going to do something stupid. And he’s the one who’ll wear it on his permanent record since he’s 18. Or he’s the one that will get sick from alcohol poisoning.

And I though potty training was hard. This sucks.

Yesterday was the 2 year mark for dad’s death. Doesn’t seem possible.

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All my kiddos are gone for the evening except MB4. He’ll knock off early and then it’ll just be MD and I. Oh wait, he’s at a volleyball tourney (working), has a milk run to tackle right after, and then he has to stock stores tonight. And tomorrow he’s playing in a volleyball tourney that I can’t go to because I have to run around picking up all the children. Something’s wrong here.

Just took a nice long bath. I needed that. Now I want to play Sims3, but with 6 kids in the game, it’s almost a damn chore to play. Maybe I’ll create a new one and not be married. Maybe I won’t cheat this time for my money. Whatever.

I should play Myst. Gawd how I love that game. But I can’t play it without MD because we solve shit (and consequently cheat) together. Besides, I’d have to reinstall it and what a pita that is.

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Still haven’t figured out what we’re doing for MD’s car. We have about 3 more days to think about it before MB2 needs his car back. Yay.

By the way, my 5th year anniversary was yesterday. 5 years of no smoking. Anyone else?I remember those weeks of hell. That’s the reason I refuse to light up – I will never go through that shit again.

MD has battled on and off ever since the day I quit. He gave ‘em up two days ago. Let’s hope it’s for good this time. He coughs like nobody’s business.

Loved Pandora till it played I will always love you by Houston. Mom had that played at dad’s funeral. Not a dry eye.

Gawd I miss him. It’s almost been two years. Hard to believe.

I think I have the budget figured out, as long as he runs those milk runs faithfully. But the car situation is another thing. There just isn’t money available to buy him a little cheapo car. And with technically two other car loans, I don’t think anyone will finance a small used one. We have two weeks to figure it out before school starts.

There is possibly another job opening up for MD. Please send a positive thought or two that he makes it on. More money and better benefits.

Maybe someday soon I can get into it, but for now, all I can say is that our income just took a huge hit. It took MD’s car money and turned it into bill money. Right now we are juggling with the boys’ cars. Going day by day.

Once again, I’m wondering what the hell to do with this site. I don’t use it until I think I’m losing it. No one comes here anymore. Just not sure what to do.

I also lost my babysitter for the tourney. There is a small playground there, so I guess the little ones will be coming out with us. All day. In August heat.

Gee, I’m such a bearer of cheery news.