Didn’t do so well on taking my pills during vacation, and I’m suffering now. Depressed as all get out. Crazy how it bears down on you so fast and so hard. All I want to do is sleep. Sleep and cry. Lovely way to end a vacation.

Partial pics are up. Still recovering.

What better way to spend your birthday than cramped in a van with your loud ass family for two days?

We leave today after MD gets home from work. Let no bad happen. Let only fun in the sun happen.

Doc thought I might handle the trip better with some ativan. Who am I to argue? Still no word on the tests. It seems that the lab has misplaced the results. I’ll be damned if I get stuck again.

So much to do today. Hope I’m not forgetting anything.

Enjoy your week – I know I will.

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I forgot, the doc also gave me permission to stop taking the lithium for a bit – just not right now. She wants me to wait until summer time. I guess spring is a hopping time for bipolars, and she doesn’t think we should rock the boat just yet. But , at least she agreed to try. We’re hoping that the Abilify is strong enough to handle the mood stabilizing, as well as the rage control. It’s totally possible, especially since my lithium levels run so damn low – why bother taking it at all? Why live my life in a senile state if I don’t have to? And I think the doc is finally understanding just how bad the memory thing is. It’s about damn time.

I love you.

I got the form to work! Yay me. I also made the other form available for pdf download. That wasn’t so hard.

Not used to having trouble like this. And to think I used to consider this shit fun. Not.

I need some help. I can’t remember how to do certain things on this web site for my mom, and I was wondering if someone could help me. Mainly it’s getting a form to work, and making something available for download. I just can’t figure it out anymore. Seriously makes me want to stop these damn pills. I hate being like this.

Anyway, if you can help me out, I’d appreciate it. Just email me. Really shouldn’t be that hard. I’m just stupid.

My mother in law has been here since last Sunday. Visit has been going well. She leaves tomorrow, and things should return to normal. Except that we’re ALMOST READY FOR DISNEY!

Could someone please send me an email? I lost my computer for two days and had to dump it. Now I can’t get the email configured right. My brain these days, I tell ya.

Anyhooooo, if someone could just drop me a line, I’d appreciate it.

That other job won’t be ready until April – IF it happens at all. My friend said it’s a mess there right now, and no one knows what tomorrow brings.

Great. Nothing like waiting around 2-3 months for nothing. Now I can’t try to find a job until AFTER we return from FL. Who’d hire me knowing I need a vacation right now? Gah. This blows.

I sure wish I knew what the universe is pushing me toward.

He’s back to wearing colors. He wore shoes to work that tie. He bought a cardigan sweater. Seems like another phase is over.

MB2 cut his hair!! And MB3 said he’d cut his if I paid his cell phone bill this month. DONE! I’m so thrilled I could cry.